Charity

Charity. I'm working on it. Its hard. MUCH harder than I thought.

I don't know why I thought it would be easy to be charitable. Its just the pure love of Christ right? I should have known it wasn't going to take a mere 15 minutes to achieve, or else it would have been called the pure love of Rachael or the pure love of Geoffrey. Nope, I can feel it is going to take a LOT of time for me to even come close. Why?

charity vaunteth not itself...
(meaning I can't boast about myself excessively. I'm a middle child-- I'm ALWAYS trying to draw attention to myself)
charity envieth not...
(I fail at this almost every day)
charity thinketh no evil....
(meaning I have to think the best of people-- all people. Usually I only think well of people when it serves my interest or doesn't affect my self-esteem. Otherwise, I am only too ready to think ill of people if it makes me feel better about myself)

So I am going to start with "thinking no evil." I am going to try to give people the benefit of the doubt. To think well of them. And when others do well, I am going to try to applaud them instead of feeling discouraged that I don't share their talents. And I will try not to talk about others behind their backs or dwell on their faults because it makes me feel better about my faults.

And above all, I am going to pray.