My birthday is coming up.
I turn 29 on May 18. I can no longer say I am in my mid twenties because 29 is so close to thirty you might as well just round it up anyway (I would have made a poor accountant)
The other day I listened to a Taylor Swift song and felt exceptionally old. I don't think she was even born in the 80's, and a lot of her songs are about high school crushes and first loves, and the music videos invariably involve her somewhere in high school or wearing a prom dress.
I didn't even know who Justin Beiber was until a few months ago, and it was because I read about him in Time magazine, and not because I watched him on youtube.
At some point in the last year, I realized that not only am I no longer a teenager, but teenagers would not even consider me their peer. I am a grown-up, an adult, a mom. I wear socks with slip on shoes because my feet get cold. And lately, my legs have begun to creak and pop when I do squats.
And I have to admit that there is a part of me, watching those Taylor Swift videos, that would like to be 18 again, a senior in high school, with my whole life ahead of me, dreaming about my first big crush, getting ready for senior prom...
and then I remember that it is a music video, as far from reality as a Star Trek episode. I might as well dream of being a Vulcan for all the similarities.
In reality, being a teenager was really hard and full of a lot of insecurity. I wouldn't relive it for all the chocolate in Switzerland. I wouldn't want the skin of a teenager, the body of a teenager, or the emotional drama of a teenager.
Its really not that bad to be 28, almost 29. In fact, its pretty awesome. I don't have to worry about whether the guy I like, likes me back. I don't have to worry about what I am going to do on Friday night or who to sit next to in the cafeteria. My life doesn't rise and fall with whether or not I get asked to a dance. My success in life is not measured by how many people I get to sign my yearbook. I have two separate eyebrows and my body is healthier than it has ever been.
Although, I do kind of miss my minimum wage job working at Great Harvest....mmmm, bread.
All in all, I like being me, right now, right where I am.
Now, time to go write a song....
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3 comments:
Happy early Birthday!!! I hope you have a wonderful one! Doug's birthday is the 20th. Anna does look pretty dangerous with that banana! LOL
Johnny says: I remember it was your birthday coming up. 29 you're so old. Don't worry, I'll be there in 2 months. I remember when you told Audrey you were so much older than her because you were 20 and she was only 19. Oh, and I miss you working at Great Harvest too.
Shelby says: Happy Birthday soon! We only learned who Justin Beiber was last week because someone told us Sol's hair was like his. Then we cut it. Yes, I LOVE this stage of my life so much better than teenager life. It's a beautiful thing to have so much school behind us! Cheers to your upcoming birthday!
Yes, Happy Birthday. And I applaud your attitude, it's much better than mine. But then, I really liked high school and enjoyed my time at BYU. (Well, not so much law school...)
But sometimes I think, 35 years of work, work work, in front of me, and that is pretty depressing. The premature gray doesn't help either.
Having said that, my 31st is coming up, and it's not phasing me nearly as much as 30 last year. But I think I should definitely try to adopt your outlook...much more healthy.
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